Sometimes I fill up with the memories of the people who loved me and let me know they want to stay with me as long as they could.
I was a vain person early in my life even though I always loved kindness, and the gracious Southern way of life living up to standard. The more you praised my manners the more manners I behaved.
Later on down the road of real life I also learned Vanity of vanity is sinful too.
Becoming independent in one thing but indifferent to the feelings of other people is unnecessary relating to people taking an interest in being around us.
I hurt them by not being as friendly as iI was capable of, and not being more compassionate that I now remember so clearly feeling guilty of something I cannot go back and fix.
I hope they forgive me after I outlived them realizing they were a better person than me back then.
I feel I need forgiveness from just about everyone who loved me because now I know I wasn't as smart as I thought, that they tolerated my limitations and being stuck on myself. So whatever tears and pain they felt over me disappointing them, I beg their forgiveness now that I am running out of time too.
If I am lucky enough to be forgiven by God we can pick up where we lift off except I am a better Tommy than I ever was before, and "Laissez less bons temps rouler" translated to English. Let the good times roll.
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