Tommy - Can you walk with Jesus in true friendship almost as well as he is a friend to you? I dismissed the story about Jesus coming back from the dead after three days. So without believing that, Jesus was simply a nice guy who loves everyone to me for a long time. Until I began to believe wow, Jesus' wonderful attitude could only come from a divine spirit loving everyone else the same. How I can not do that. That he just might have risen into heaven after all.
Jesus Resurrection from the dead does, in fact, makes him God's spirit in the flesh become true in life separate and apart from you and me, alive and well for all eternity.
How your loved one spirit just because they believe and love Jesus is also waiting in heave to see if you make it up there with them once again too. I often ask the invisible, where maybe the people who loved me might be now. "Can you give me a sign, a signal to me, that you are in the face alive in heaven with Jesus, and how that would make my day?" How a signal like that from them would make me the happiest person on earth. I once asked my mother who I trusted more than anyone for a sign and I saw a brief flash from a bright distant light like a faraway star, blinking a few time, that startled me into almost believing that, "was my mother fulfilling my call that she is ok and still waiting for me?" But, I don't know if that was only my mind's eye and not coming from my mother at all, you know what I mean.
No one else has done anything out of the ordinary, like pushing over the bookcase or appearing like smoke, or anything I can believe in.
But I did experience a crazy moment 18 years ago as my wife lay in the hospital on life support while I was sleeping on a June night in Hendersonville North Carolina along at home.
All of a sudden I became frozen to the bone waking me up out of a dead sleep 3:00 AM how I couldn't get warm, puzzled that I was feeling like that on a Southern Summer Night. "What the hell!?"
So finally I fell back to sleep after about 4 more minutes like nothing happen warm and normal again.
I woke up to a phone call from my Wife Hospital telling me they were removing my Wife off of her life support because of fluid buildup around her brain, that she was, in fact, now brain dead.
I felt like I was smashed as the Doctor ask me what Funeral parlor would pick up her body, and I told him, fighting back a feeling to cry like I never cried before remembering how my father never showed his suffering teaching me that real men don't complain or show how much they hurt in public.
I lasted all of 3 minutes telling my son, "Mother passed away" trying to talk more but my tears wouldn't let me speak. Thinking about how my lovely wife who lost everything, her very life.
Was that her spirit telling me "goodbye" early in the morning waking me up out of a dead sleep?
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