Tuesday, May 31, 2022

But I quickly have ice cream until that dangerous feeling fades away.

Thomas Williams - Looking at this formula place, I can still feel the moments we sat there on Lake Pontchartrain seawall steps close to each other in 1972. My car was full of our friends, but I stopped driving because Sue and I wanted some quiet together, walking to sit here looking at the Sunset and not saying much at all. 

I think our friends were kissing or something back in my car, oblivious to where we were.

This moment in time was before we were married three weeks later.

I feel exhausted trying to tell you how deeply in love we were from the moment we first met and the following perfect kiss. And how we became so delighted and scared, at the same time, knowing this was no one-night stand at all.

I didn't realize it at the time but later learned that we fell in love with each other souls and how that would stay that way until death. 

Susan Died in June 2002 after thirty years of marriage, raising three children. 

I have not married again because frankly, her death hurt me too much, and I will never do that again.

But still, nevertheless, I keep getting hit by the lighting strikes of emotion seeing the places and moments we shared. I would need to be a mummy not to feel her memory of us together.

When I feel the attraction to other women, I can't help but know what could happen if reciprocated again, but I quickly have ice cream until that dangerous feeling fades away.

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